MY MIND IS BUNDLED in nerves like a Jack Russell terrier running round and jumping in circles, chewing on a leash to meet her again. I'm wondering if the heart beating within her was still the tin relic passed down from her mother, an heirloom of questionable quality. Her personality was an acquired taste perhaps but I recall fragments here and there of sex that night twenty years ago in the cheap hotel by the college that gave me the courage to seek her out. A half bottle of Jack Daniels and a gnawing loneliness didn't hurt either. I reckoned that reconnections was all this social network mumbo jumbo was about anyway. So after a click here and there and a month of quickie e-mails, I find myself on my second cappuccino, counting ceiling tiles over and over again at Starbucks.
I figured her nights of smoke and swagger now number well into the thousands and have probably hacked into her larynx leaving her voice a hoarse whisper. Mae West sexy and a worthy complement to her voluptuous body. A bounty of tits and ass. I knew her personality of impulse and addiction wouldn't allow her vocal cords to heal from the toxic byproducts of sad and lonely times so it was no surprise when she appeared at the door drawing in one last long drag from a cigarette before letting the smoke out and flicking the butt out onto the street.
It was obvious from the wild gray in her hair and her jowly bulldog cheeks that the Facebook picture was not of recent vintage and the years have not been kind. A pair of sunglasses sat atop her waves of frizzy hair though it was a dreary day. Overcast with a chance of rain. I waved but she was doing a three sixty trying to orient herself as if this was the first coffeehouse she ever frequented.
“Rebecca Ann,” I called out. Her head jerked back as she turned suddenly, the sunglasses dropping onto the floor. She reached down to pick them up and started heading towards the door before doing an about face and marching to the counter. The barista motioned to a section of tables where I was seated. She took small, unsure steps in my direction so I stood up and smiled. She did not smile back as she reached into a beige canvas tote bag and pulled out a small rolled up brown paper bag. A chill cradled my neck like bony fingers. My mind raced through its bank of memories sorting through images and actions trying to recall whether our short physical relationship ended more badly than I remembered.
“Robert,” she scowled, her voice even harsher than I expected. She patted her head and said, “I see you haven't aged well.”
True, I was balding badly but I was still taken aback as I thought I took reasonably good care of myself and she had put on at least fifty pounds in the last twenty years and besides what kind of thing was that to say to someone after all this time. Her personality quirks came back to mind from the reserves of memory. Cold and snarky like her uptight mom. I searched her eyes for a glimmer of the long lost attraction I once felt but was greeted by a deep darkness. A life barely there and rimmed with rouge.
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